Dear Lord,
pls make all these feelings of insecurity,guilt,confusion and resentment go away this christmas... and for many many many many other future christmas.

Somehow, the issue isnt whether U can handle it but rather if I can handle it..

dont keep me out.

dont cling to things;for everything is impermanent

One's got a perfect wholesomeness & do-gooder ways,which some would see it as a naive hick, but i think of it as something so beautiful and endearing.
The other has got all the ugly things i found so incredibly attractive;the style,the cockiness,a self-assuredness so rock-solid it seemed almost impossible to insult..

U r both great in such radically different ways.

despite it being for the better, a selfish part of me is wishing you would never give up on this.

your fidelity is unquestionably admirable,
I can't say enough how fuckin' awesome&lovely u r

and not to be crude,
but i fucking love you.

as hard as it is , i really should remember to do my 50 sit-ups every night.

i feel : fat

One day,i will figure myself out
i will find freedom from strife
i dunno how
but im gonna try

will u still help me?